It was comfortable

This song has made me thought of you. What we had done in the past, and it was so comfortable. Have u ever thought of the same way too?

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Comfortable by John Mayer
I just remembered, that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
And rode down, aisle 5
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us, if we could leave.

Can't remember, what went wrong last September
though i'm sure you'd remind me, if you had to

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in

I sleep with this new girl i'm still getting used to
my friends all approve, say 'shes gonna be good for you'
they throw me, high fives

She says the bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was, so dirty

Life of the party
and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish
Miles from Coltrane

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
or so they say, hey

She thinks I can't see the smile that shes faking
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweat pants, no makeup, so perfect

Our love was, comfortable and
so broken in
she's perfect, so flawless
I'm not impressed, I want you back again.

We are venturers~

Woah guess what~ I thk we are really venturers! Everybody out there, if u guys are goin to slacking at the Putrajaya Sri Wawasan Bridge for the late nite, pls do consider to change ur mind and go for something else. Be a risk taker!! Rather than sitting beside the road and chatting with ur frens while there are not much night view that is impressive enough to get ur attention, u may spend some of ur time by walking around and in the end u may get to see some beautiful night view as well as exploring some unknown places that u've never been. And u could feel the breeze of the wind so clearly and there's nobody out there, it's EMPTY. It's like the whole world belongs to you, ONLY YOU. Just abit scared that something bad will happen, that's it. Well, who knows somebody sneak up on u suddenly and... Okiee, whatever. *shrugs*

Anyway, it was a great nite. I've never tried that before. We just didn't care bout what will happen on us if we walked down the bridge. What we did? We meditated on the jeti. (Yea.. we did meditate on the jeti..for how long?... i thk about one hour?! anyway, meditate was great!) Oh..We put our feet into the lake as well. The lake was freaking dark and it looked like there's a huge creature under the lake :p (of cos it's just some sorta metaphore) We lied on the jeti. We walked on the stick for "practising" the "balancing skill". We ventured into the monorail tunnel at the centre of putrajaya. (some part did scared me alot!! According to buttercup, the feeling was like the feeling when he was watching "Silent Hill". *scary*) Then, we...................... *there's still a long venturers' story and it has been cut off eventually :p*

In short, u guys should try this and go for some "exploring" at nite. This is one of the COOLEST way for slacking :D But u guys better go in a big group as this is safer.(safety first :D)

Maybe our next exploring will be the underground of the putrajaya. It's so cool!! Can't wait!!

你 懂 什 么 是 爱 吗?

Do u know what is love? Well seen this article in Summer's blog. And i found out it's really interesting. I'm totally agree with it. Felt touching and recalled my past when i saw this article.

Love oh love~

开始的开始总是甜蜜的。
后来就有了厌倦、习惯、背弃、寂寞、绝望和冷笑。
曾经渴望与一个人长相厮守，后来，多么庆幸自己离开了？
曾几何时，在一段短暂的时光里，我们以为自己深深的爱着的一个人。
后来，我们才知道，那不是爱，那只是对自己说谎。
你以为不可失去的人，原来并非不可失去。
你流干了眼泪，自有另一个人逗你欢笑。
你伤心欲绝，然后发现不爱你的人，根本不值得你为之伤心。
今天回首，何尝不是一个喜剧？情尽时，自有另一番新境界， 所有的悲哀也不过是历史。
爱情总是想象比现实美丽，相逢如是，告别亦如是。
我们以为爱得很深、很深，来日岁月，会让你知道，它不过很浅、很浅。
最深最重的爱，必须和时日一起成长。
因为爱情的缘故，两个陌生人可以突然熟络到睡在同一张床上。
然而，相同的两个人， 在分手时却说， 我觉得你越来越陌生。
爱情将两个人由陌生变成熟悉，又由熟悉变成陌生。
爱情正是一个将一对陌生人变成情侣， 又将一对情侣变成陌生人的游戏。
相信爱情可以令一个人改变， 是年轻的好处，也是年轻的悲哀。
浪子永远是浪子。
令男人改变的，也许是上帝的爱或者佛祖的慈悲，但绝对不会是女人。
最不宜结婚的是浪子，最适宜结婚的也是浪子。
往往不是女人改变一个浪子，而是女人在浪子想改变的时候刚好出现。
男人的一生，不过对女人做两件事： 超乎她想象的好和超乎她想象的坏。
女人用他的好来原谅他的坏。
如果有一天他们不能在一起， 不是他太坏，而是她太好。
我们一生之中，要牢记和要忘记的东西一样多。
记忆存在细胞里，在身体里面，与肉体永不分离，要摧毁它，等于玉石俱焚。
然而，有些事情必须忘记， 忘记痛苦， 忘记最爱的人对你的伤害， 只好如此。
时间会让你了解爱情，时间能够证明爱情， 也能够把爱推翻。 没有一种悲伤是不能被时间减轻的。
如果时间不可以令你忘记那些不该记住的人，我们失去的岁月又有什么意义？
如果所有的悲哀、痛苦、失败都是假的，那该多好？
可惜，世上有很多假情假义， 自己的痛苦、失败、悲哀，却偏偏总是真的。
他纵有千个优点，但他不爱你， 这是一个你永远无法说服自己去接受的缺点。
一个人最大的缺点不是自私、多情、野蛮、任性，而是偏执地爱一个不爱自己的人。
暗恋是一种自毁，是一种伟大的牺牲。
暗恋，甚至不需要对象， 我们不过站在河边，看着自己的倒影自怜， 却以为自己正爱着别人。
爱情和情歌一样，最高境界是余音袅袅。
最凄美的不是报仇雪恨，而是遗憾。最好的爱情，必然有遗憾。 那遗憾化作余音袅袅，长留心上。 最凄美的爱，不必呼天抢地，只是相顾无言。
失望，有时候，也是一种幸福。因为有所期待，才会失望。
遗憾，也是一种幸福。因为还有令你遗憾的事情。
追寻爱情，然后发现， 爱，从来就是一件千回百转的事。
最浪漫的爱是得不到的。 最浪漫的情话，是当哪个已经跟你分了手的人打电话来问："你好吗？" 你稀松平常地回答："我很好。" 而其实你还爱着他，你一点也不好。
男人伪装坚强，只是害怕被女人发现他软弱。
女人伪装幸福，只是害怕被男人发现她伤心。
爱情，有时候，是一件令人沉沦的事情， 所谓理智和决心，不过是可笑的自我安慰的说话。
爱情从来都是一种束缚，追求爱情并不等于追求自由。
自由可贵，我们用这最宝贵的东西换取爱情。
因为爱一个人，明知会失去自由， 也甘愿作出承诺。
诺言是用来跟一切的变幻抗衡。 变幻原是永恒，我们唯有用永恒的诺言制约世事的变幻。
不能永恒的，便不是诺言。 诺言是很贵的，如果你尊重自己的人格。
爱是有安全感，又没有安全感。
爱是一种震撼，也是一种无力感。
爱是诱惑，也惟有爱能给你力量抗拒诱惑。
爱是忠诚，可是爱也会令你背
一个人负心，或许是因为他的记忆力不好。
他忘记了，所以他能够负心；不是因为他负心，所以他忘记了。
以前种种，他并非完全忘记，但他记忆力太差了，往事已经不再深刻， 很快就被新的记忆取代，只记得新人的欢笑， 忘记旧人的笑脸。
懂爱的女人通常输得很惨。
爱情本来就是残忍的，胜者为王。感情可以转帐，婚姻可以随时冻结，激情可以透支，爱情善价而沽。
是的，在这细小的都市里，这就是我们的生活。今天的长相厮守，只是尽力而为而已。
最安全和最合时宜的方式，还是和自己厮守
一个钱币最美丽的状态，不是静止， 而是当它像陀螺一样转动的时候，没人知道，即将转出来的那一面， 是快乐或痛苦，是爱还是恨。
快乐和痛苦，爱和恨，总是不停纠缠。
所谓缘分，也和发明一样吧，都是源于偶然。 爱情也是一种发明，需要不断改良。
只是，这种发明跟其他发明不一样， 它没有专利权，随时会给人抢走。
愈害怕失去的人，愈容易失去。 愈想得到，就愈要放手。放手是很难的，但是别无选择。
世上有很多东西是可以挽回的， 比如良知，比如体重。
但不可挽回的东西更多，譬如旧梦，譬如岁月，譬如对一个人的感觉。
放弃一个很爱你的人并不痛苦， 放弃一个你很爱的人才是痛苦
食物可以有标签，说明"请在此之前食用"。
女人不是食物，青春是有期限的，忍耐也是有期限的， 请在期限期满之前好好爱她，好好照顾她， 因为她是逾时不候的。
万物有时，怀抱有时，爱情也有时序。
爱情有生、老、病、死。爱情总在不知不觉间过期。
有一天， 我们把它拿出来， 才知道它最鲜活的日子已经永远过去。
在最有感觉的时候，她没有停下脚步， 那么，也不必在一起走完那段路之后，回头去寻找那些散落在地上的感觉， 路已经走完。
爱情中最伤感的时刻是后期的冷淡， 一个曾经爱过你的人，忽然离你很远，咫尺之隔，却是天涯。 曾经轰轰烈烈，曾经千回百转，曾经沾沾自喜，曾经柔肠寸断。
到了最后， 最悲哀的分手竟然是悄无声息
有相逢就有别离， 可是每个人都害怕别离。
大家都知道，最后一次的别离就是死亡。
我们口里说"天下无不散之宴席"， 心里却舍不得喝掉手中的酒，还想再唱一支歌，再唱一支歌。
你可不可以不走

或许,你的心里正在发生一些细微的变化 是吗?
爱情------这是一个永恒而又年青的话题, 每一个爱情故事里一定有精彩的片断,
相信爱,爱就会可爱

Keep holding on

Start to meditate...
Meditate about what is love...
Love is complicated, somehow.
But it also can be as simple as u want.
Just depend on ur mindset.
Well, u know what's that feel when it comes rite?

It's deeper than "like".
Like is something simpler than love.
U'll be fond of something when u like it.
Just hard to describe that "like" feeling.
Well sometime u'll like someone that u're admired with,
Sometime u'll just like something that u feel impressived with..
It just as simple as that.
Who knows?


But love is different.
U're not alone when u're in love.
Not standing alone and there's someone who stands by ur side,
all the time.
And even u're facing any hardship,
u'll keep holding on,
till the end,
cos u know u'll make it through,
with the hands that u hold onto.
And u'll stay strong even u know u can't hold on anymore,
cos u know there's someone is here for u.
So u'll keep holding on.

But what if there's no one that u can hold onto?
Maybe u'll fall to pieces,
and let the bruises accompany u through the freezing nite.

Perharps this will make me feel better:
Nothing's gonna change destiny.
Whatever that is meant to be,
will work out perfectly.

Grr.. gonna stop meditating soon! It's early in da mornin!! and im still awake!!

X'mas eve

Went yam cha with my frens cos we got nothing to do on x'mas eve. Luckily i got them if not my x'mas will be rather bored then. Brought Teresa with me and i felt sorry for her cos i didn't bring her to anywhere neither shopping mall which fulled with the beau x'mas deco nor church. I know u had family and frens with u during ur previous x'mas celebration, except this year, but anyway im glad i could spent my x'mas with u :) Hope u won't mind the not-so-happening x'mas that u have spent here.

Well, bac to the topic. As i reached home, my cousin and her bf already waited outside my house. Next stop -- Genting. So we head to Genting. Just slacking there with teresa while the couple spent their time together. (of cos without us la :p) We went to Coffeebean and had a hot latte there. we were chit-chatting while trying to finish the coffee cos it was freezing there! Head off to outside and just walked around. Chilling chilling!! Snapped some pix too. Happy :))

Managed to snap some pix before the battery of my digital cam ran out... Forgotten to charge the battery :/

New look~

Well, at last i've decided to cut my hair short-short! I mean really short!! Now i could even feel the light breeze that flows off my neck :D It really needs lotsa bravery to do this. (to me) And i was amazed by my own decision and "determination" cos when the hair stylist was asking me if i was really sure with my decision to cut it short as he was holding a sparkling-sharp scissors, i looked straighly into his eyes and said "yes" seriously while i was nodding my head. Then the next second, the hair stylist which Brandon was his name, cut my hair to shoulder length. I felt so free after that!! Man, i've keep my hair long for a really long period, which was long enough to make me really sick of it :/ After half an hour, my hair was done finally :)) It's somehow looked like a lil mushroom... But i like it :D Here's the before & after...






I thk the shop was not bad after all as the hair stylist there will give u some suggestions as well as some haircare tips. Know what? My sister also cut her hair short!! which looked 80% like me... haha... Cos both of us came across with this idea at the same time. Wondering if we had the sixth sense towards each other...

Sorry just being a camwhore cos im so excited with my new look. Hehe.. and so was my dear sister and my cutey roommie. *grins*




Well my sister looks exactly the same as me rite? and my roommie Teresa has totally changed too with abit of fringe adding on.
We are the brand new us :)

Let's pray

Let's spend a couple of seconds and pray to The God...

Please don't rain tonite.

Thousands and millions please.
Just please.

Rambling

Went yam cha with my frens at nite and it was a really nice place expecially for couples. Not bad for a bunch of frens thou for craping lah. It's cosy and yet we can view the whole nite scene of KL. It has a look up point and several cafe around the area. I have no idea what's the name is but i thk it's called "ngam nga san" (in cantonese). Thanks to my crazie yamcha's kaki. We would not got the chance to pay a visit there if he didnt ask us for tea :D
Well, in short, it was a great nite. Regretted cos didn't bring along my digital cam :/

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Oh well, again...
Know that im not as lucky as others.
This is what had happened on me this BeingLuckyJustNotYourType gal...

I saw my fren's entry and found out that he's goin to Holland. I was hopping and jumping (technically) cos i tot i could ask him to help me buy the cute Holland Shoes... even a keychain of it will favour me alot :)


Then after 2 days, when i saw him online, i quickly asked him about the trip. BUT... what he told me was he just got bac from Holland!! Duh......

Haih, how unlucky am i?
Extremely.

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Exams is around the corner and now im sitting here blogging. Just can't help it and so i'll go to study right after i finished this entry. There's Japanese Text and the subject that i hated - Microeconomics on this friday :((

Thk will ask some help from my microecon guru - the cute Alexie :D
He self-proclaimed as a expert of microecon... Plus it's FOC, of cos im gonna ask him lah~ Muahahaha...

Wait... Don't so happy first emily. Cos he's so busy currently :(
Where are you Alexie? missed u loh~

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Oh well. Jogged to Cyberpark this late evening. It was a cloudy evening which was nice to jog. Don't ask me y i still went jogging even my exam is coming. Well u know, cos i need to lose my weight down. Been adding to much weight lately. So gotta do as much exercise as possible, avoiding to sit on the chair for a long period (but it's tough thou cos i have an attempt of sticking my arse on it lol). Ok.. back to the topic. Cyberpark was a really nice place to hang out with ur gang, just slacking there was the most relaxful moment i've ever had. The water lily just "spreading" on the lake and it's WHITE!! Gosh... hate myself cos didn't bring along my camera. Cos the camera is lying so lonely in my drawer most of the time ( i always tend to forget things :p)

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Well, it's time to stop now. Quite a long entry for me. Time to study.
Till then, adieu.

OMG

Warning: Do not read this when u're eating or drinking. U might choke urself.

Ok... Im so pissed off.. I don't want to talk about this actually but i just can't hold up anymore.
U know what?
My "new name" has come out.

AGAIN.

*A big Thanks* to my *cute* buddy Buttercup...
*muaksss* (mumbling endless "shit" while i was typing this :/)

Y can't u put something nicer lah Buttercup? See... i gav u such a cute name - Buttercup,
BUT y u named me Patrick Star?? *stab stab*

The Patrick Star in the Spongebob SquarePants....
The dumbest creature under the sea... :/
Here it comes...

I hate this. Though he's cute. I don't really like the fluffy skin of him :/

And i prefer the bubbly Bubbles more.. :))


Any suggestion on what should i name the notty Buttercup??
Cos the Buttercup thingy just doesn't seems effective enough to piss him off :p

The Powerpuff

I've been SOoo fugged up by one of my buddy Uncle lately cos Old Lady is the name that he links me.
Wait...
It's the FOURTH actually. The first was Aunty slut, the second was Aunty dump, the third was Amali, and the Old lady is the fourth.. Not even one sounds nice.. I was like... -_-"
So, i told myself that im gonna find some special name for him too. And after discussing with my another good fren of mine, we've come out with a brilliant idea!!!

Powerpuff Girls!!

And after goggle-ing through the internet, i found out that the characteristic of them quite suits us actually!! Blossom has long hair, pink eyes, and dressed in pink. she is the most mature, level-headed and composed member of the group, which helps hold the group together, although her personality can spill over into being fussy, overbearing and overly analytical. While Bubbles is the one with blonde hair in pigtails, blue eyes, and dressed in blue. She acts as the baby of the group (despite being the same age) and is defined by her innocence, playfulness and gentle demeanour. She does, however, have a tendency to be naive, submissive and overemotional, leading to her often being (unfairly) regarded, by friends and foes alike, as the group's weak link. However, she can become very independent and aggressive when pushed. And lastly the Buttercup. She has short black hair, green eyes, and dressed in green.She has a habit, though, of letting her aggression get the better of her, making her reckless, stubborn and overly-aggressive. Guess which one is the uncle, and which one is my good fren teresa and which one is me? *blinking my eyes*

from left: Buttercup, Blossom & Bubbles

Oh.. forgot to tell u guys that Uncle is the Buttercup :D

如果.爱

如果有得选择，

我宁愿这一辈子在也遇不上她，

也不愿在遇见以后，

陌生的向她点头，

然后孤单的掉头走，

心里还是挂念着她。。。

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Seen this post in my fren's blog (sorry for pirating :p)... Somehow i wished the same way too.
But now, i can't.

Have u...

Have u ever figured what's the inner u?
Have u ever done something that u really desired to?
Have u ever try to do something that is forbidden and u just don't care about the consequences of it?
Have u ever spoken out ur mind to the person that u dying to be with but both of u seems are not meant to be together?
Have u ever lie on the road in the middle of the nite?
Have u ever done anything that's sounds so stupid and u could laugh out loud when u recall it?
Have u?
.
.
.
Im just craping... u can see that im still awake at half past 4 in the morning!
Cos i've just done something crazy.
Betcha can't figure out what i've done just now
LoL

relieved (just for this sec)

Im so tired... unimaginably tired!! Perharps im mentally tortured right now cos im drowning by tons of stuff - assignment, studies, society thingy.. seems endless!! Grrr... My brain and my body are somewhat "separated" from me... feel like a zombie now :(( Just got bac from my cyberp assignment booth. tired tired tired!!

Yesterday i thk it was a pretty "extraordinary" day though. I was sitting in front of my lappie all nite long settling some stuff that need to be done by midnite. So, at last i finished those stuff by 11 something. Then, i was thinking of jogging cos i need to calm down!! (as u know exercise is one of the way for realising ur stressness :D) I know it was near to 12am in the midnite and i was quite a lacking-of-gut person so hey... no worries, cos i asked my frens to jog with me as well (for sure lol) We jogged around the campus and we stopped at some place near the new building. The place itself was quite deserted but the scenery there was nice though. Really quiet so i could hear the chirping noise made by crickets so clearly. The breeze flowed by my face as i was looking at the twinkling stars that up so high in the sky. Wished i could gone with the wind, and flew myself to reach the beautiful stars :)

After got bac from jogging, i was told that my fren hav gotten into a huge fight with his housemate. And he called me after that. So as a fren of him, i chattered with him to make him feels better. Problems do come to us and we got to handle it carefully. Sometime we need to be the one who make the first move and the problem will be solved eventually. So, no worries my dear friend :D I'll be here for my friends, always.

It was 3 something after i hung up the phone call and i haven't taken my shower yet!! :/ So i went to shower after that, and by the time i finished bathing it was nearly 4am! hell :(

Happy, or not?

Song: Sarah McLachran - Angel

Planned to go ktv and sing till our heart out with my friends this morning. But... heck... the stupid alarm didn't wake me up, and we were late for our 11am booking. The stupid Neway (cheras) released our room to other customer cos we were late! The receptionist asked us to wait until 12pm, omfg... It's just not the way they treat their customers back in Time Square. They'll still reserve the room for u even u're late. So, we left and went to Leisure Mall instead.

We catched up "Happy Feet" about half an hour later. It wasn't bad though. Had a great time with those cute looking penguin expecially Mumble. The movie itself has some hidden meaning that make us think. Hmm.. not bad. After the movie, we just walk around the mall, and wee~ i bought one spaghetti top which looks really nice. I like the print, it looks elegant, and it's GREEN. Yea.. 2 different shade of green. The top have some diamonds and pearls on the front part of it. NICE~ :D

But...

It's the LAST piece :(( Anyway, i took it at last cos i really like it!! And i got a 10% discount cos it's a display (convincing myself that i got a cheaper top lol) And well, i know that i seldom wear any spaghetti top. Oh.. yeah.. at least i can wear it to my friend's wedding buffet then (wait.. not my fren, it's my fren's sis) *grin*

Not to mention that i bought a pair of earrings!! God, u can't ever guess how long i have not wearing any of them :/ But damnit, i've lost one of it right before i wear them! Thk im not meant to wear any earrings :(( Wasted my money...

Forget it :/

And u know what? My mum bought me a yoga mat! Yay... can do some yoga in my hostel then :p
Hopefully can make my bodyshape trimmer... only if i dont' give up. Have to do exercise besides yoga, jogging perharps. Jogging is good, u can sweat as many as u can, loose ur weight down, and u can do some "thinking" as well when u are jogging. Great isn't it?

Anyway, having a mood fling right now. After some incidents had happened. Wish i could run to a place that is far away from here.

Song: Sarah McLachran - I will remember you

Clarification

Im hereby officially announcing my rudeness for saying u r a bitch. Im just kidding around xD So, hang on and stop calling me slut or watever the unidentified terms that u've been used on me :) I know i was wrong in the first place. Sorry :((

p/s: slut is a dirty untidy woman or a woman adulterer. Im not a dirty untidy woman nor a woman adulterer. So, stop calling me slut though i know u r joking around...

pp/s: the people that i mentioned above is a guy but not a gal!! pls don't misunderstood.

Pondering

Song: The Fray - Look after you

Sometimes, things just turn out differently from wat u've expected. U thk it's not goin to rain cos it seems like a sunny day, but then u r wrong, u got wet. U thk u could resist the fragrance of hot latte when u step into starbucks for accompanying ur frens, again, u failed to do so. U thk u goin to be happy for the rest of the day cos u thk it's a wonderful day for u, but u turned out being so emo and distressing in the end of the day. U wanna hate someone but u just can't, the more u wanna do so, the more u miss him/her. U wanna say "one" but u end up say "two". U wanna say "no" and u ended up say "yes". U wanna treat someone sincerely but the person seems doesn't care bout wat u did. U r unhappy and pop out with some crap, tot ur fren would care bout u and say something to make u feel better, but then it just doesn't work, and maybe ur fren will even say something which make u feel even worst. U tot u could be nourished by the never-ending magic of love which make u thk that it's still a fairy tale existed in reality , but it has gone eventually, just blink away, u can't even realise it has disappeared.

Need a shoulder to lean on. But there's no one i could lean on. Feel so insecure. Think i should go bac to my room then n lie on my bed, cos my pillow is there for me to lean on...

Song: Snow Patrol - Make this go on forever

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The songs melted my heart.

Bac

Im bac.. Im bac to u my old layout, after much consideration and some changes that has been made :))

Hopefully i will not "abandon" u so soon.

Microeconomic's midterm is tomorrow! Heck... cos hav to study now. God bless me.

Help~

I need u guys to do me a 'lil favour :p

For those who've seen my previous layout, can u guys drop me some of ur opinion bout which layout is better? THIS or the PREVIOUS one? Hmm.. incase u guys hav forgotten wat's my previous skin... here is it... the main image of my previous layout---



Ur comment will be much appreciated :)

Just tell me wat u thk :D

Random crap: am listening to the whole album of Snow Patrol - Eyes Open.. over n over again. Their "chasing car" is the first song that made me fall in love with them.. Then the "open your eyes" sounds so familiar cos heard before in Greys Anatomy :D "You could be happy" is a song that make me feel so touched. Their music is SOooo NICE~~ thanks to half-banana for the intro... I heart Snow Patrol~

Sh!t

Okay... I know my layout has changed AGAIN... I dun wanna change it actually but my host image somehow not working. Sigh... So... have to change it since i can't found any error in the url of the image (but the image can't pop out :/)

Just get this skin from somewhere. Have spent my whole nite surfing bout the blog design thingy :/ As u can see the time now is 4am... I know it's really common though but i thk it's ok lah... No choice... In such short period of time, how am i gonna get a skin which is not-so-complicated? Cincai la.

Lyric: 后来

后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再

栀子花　白花瓣　落在我蓝色白褶裙上
「爱你」　你轻声说
我低下头　闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚　十七岁仲夏　你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光　每当有感叹
总想起　当天的星光

那时候的爱情　为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么　人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里 你是否一样
也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能　不那么倔强
现在也　不那么遗憾

你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来　有没有人能让你不寂寞

永远不会再重来
有一个男孩　爱着那个女孩



*令我感触不少的歌...

Exhausted

Imagine u:

• Sleep at 4am, wake up at 8.30am. Can't sleep well.
• Sitting at hb3 for the whole morning for selling stuff. (cyberp assignment) The weather is hot, u have to keep layaning the ppl and u r craving for ice cold water.
• Having class after this. No break in between.
• Not taking ur lunch while u hav gastric. (luckily got some biscuits)
• Rushing to the stall right after u class.
• Looking after the stall just by urself which u dunno some of the price basically.
• Staying at the stall until 6pm and the time flows so slowly.
• Bac at hostel having biscuits again for ur dinner.
• Class AGAIN.
• Bac to room, can't sleep cos hav to stay up to revise tomorrow's japs test.

Ur face will be like this:
:((

And u r so exhausted.

This is wat i am now.
And i miss u so much right here right now...
Ur voice, ur face, everything...
Wondering hav u ever missed me?
Though i know i'll probably never know the answer...

sunnies oh sunnies~

I always dream of having a super-sized sunnies. Just like Nicole Richie. She's gorgeous with her super-duper-oversized sunnies on. Below is the latest photo of Nicole (with a gorgeous over-sized sunnies) and Paris. Nice isn't it? :))

walking in the public with old fren - paris

one of my favourite over-sized sunnies - latest fall collection of Gucci :D

And today i spotted one while i was temaning my roommie browsing through the sunnies in the optical shop, i noticed a black frame super-sized polo sunnies. And i tried it... The good news is it's look ok on me :D and the bad news is i like it but i can't buy it cos i'm tight on budget recently :/ Anyway, my roommies bought a sunnies in the end which is nice though. Hohoho...

my roommies with the new sunnies she bought :))

-Angel-

- There's always an angel just by ur side-

to give u guidedance
u may not see him/her
but...
u could feel it

Casino Royale

Album: James Morrison - Undiscovered

I've watched the just-an-ordinary-JamesBond movie with my frens. I mean it's an ordinary Bond movie - very commercialised, err... though the James Bond itself is not an ordinary one lol. Is ok if Daniel Craig is white (really white), is ok if he's not as macho as the previous Bond - Pierre Brosnan, is ok if he's not hairy as the previous James Bond were, is ok if he's short, is ok if he's keep acting cool... I mean I'M OKAY with it though he's actually abit weirdo lookin. IT'S OKAY after all cos i prefer to swift my attention to Vesper Lynd (starring by Eva Green), lookin at the beautiful cars (vintage Aston Martin, Jaguar, Ford etc.) and the marvellous scenery of Venice and some unknown castle-like builiding which surrounding by excuisite-looking lake.
No offended for saying so :))

Yea.. i prefer this (Eva Green)...

and this vintage-looking Aston Martin...

or even the bad guy Le Chiffre in the movie (Mads Mikkelsen, tot he's cool :D)

but not this :p

Craze day

Alrite... take a DEEP breath... Okay, let's get started. I thought today will be a nice day since my diarrhoea was better compared with yesterday. But... hey... I was wrong!!

First, I've taken some protein shake as my breakfast. Thinking of losing my weight, so I didn't take my lunch. But then after my class, I went to Alamanda with my fren to have something done. SOoo, I've eaten a cinnabon AND also 2/5 of a whole honey roasted chicken!!! Hell.... ended up eating so much things... Zzz... Can't walking in the mall that is fulled with mouth-watering foods!!

After got bac, went jogging with my fren. It's a "pretty good" experience though. Imagine: ur stomach is occupying with some stuff, u're breathless after 10 min, and rain pours down after that. *Great*

The rain wasn't really heavy actually. So we continued our running. I felt SuperDuper tired after finally got myself at Cyberpark. The latter part i have no idea how i can make myself bac to campus---> had stomachache and twisted one of my leg :((

Had a shower after that, then straight away head to class WITHOUT taking my dinner. The result is --- gastric, gastric and gastric even i had my dinner after my class.

AND.... tomorrow I'll be having my microeconomic's quiz!!! OMG.........

I'm SOooo not happy now. Someone cheer me up pls?! :D

Lately

Lately (i've been watching u) been thinking 'bout u baby
(and everything u do)
just sitting away watching the days go by.

Have u ever felt a breeze hit ur heart,
like the wind was blowing it apart
as you're spinning like a merry-go-around,
indications of a storm touching down
wish that i could weather any storm,
but i guess it was a heart break from the norm,
was a day i will always remember,
the saddest day in sweet November...

Lately (i've been watching u) been thinking 'bout u baby
(and everything u do)
just sitting away watching the days go by

baby i'm on my knees praying God help me please,
bring my baby bac, right bac to me
if lovin u was right then i don't wanna go wrong
so i drown myself with tears,
sitting here, singing another sad love song

Lately i've been torn apart,
i wish u hadn't broke my heart
i'm missing u baby, missing u everyday...

Taken from Divine's Lately.

Pangkor trip

Just got bac from Pangkor 2 days ago and the results of it --- got sick. Maybe it was me for not drinking enough water and had a sunburn. And now maybe got food-poisoned, cos i've diarrhea few times since morning.

Overall the trip was nice. An economical place to relax and have some fun with ur frens. We had a tour around the island by "pink taxi" after we got there. The seaview was nice though. The next day morning we went to snorkelling and we stopped at a small island before that for fun. This was the day i got a serious sunburn cos after the snorkelling, we rented some bicycles and went around the island seeking for lunch. The bicycling was really fun though the red-hot sun shining up in the sky really burned me out... Ok... so after that we went to the beach which was near around our hotel and had some "activities" - banana boat. This was the most hilarious moment whereby we laughed ourself out. We separated to 2 rounds and im the second round. After the first round fell down from the boat near the shore,they climbed up bac to the banana boat. And now's the classic moment: Tharan was climbing up to the boat, after he got himself up, he fell down to the sea AGAIN. Wahahaha. We all kept laughing at him expecially Teresa. After the first round, here's our turn. Teresa was the "leader" of us to give us commands where to move our body to prevent us from falling into the sea. I'm the third person and Qiu Yan was in front of me. She's so nervous and kept yelling at Teresa not to say hi to our fren at the beach, And bla bla bla... Hahaha.. Qiu Yan, u're so cute!!! And then the another classic moment happened right after we fell down from the boat. Eveybody climbed up the boat again for the second-fall right, so Teresa fell down right after a seconds she climbed up to the banana boat!!! Wahahaha... damn funny u know... :D

We had dinner in a seafood restaurant. It's a great dinner. Due to our tiredness, me and my buddies slept quite earlier that nite, i mean our last nite in Pangkor. Too bad din't get to join the "angels and demons" game them. Bet u guys had a great nite cos it sounds really fun. The last morning we woke up really early and went to kayaking. There were 4 of us - me, teresa, billy and ah sun. I must say it was a great experience. Cos i got a sunburn again, had a nice time on the boat - smacked by the paddle twice!! (thanks to uncle billy)

Anyhow, i missed the beach so much!! Can't wait the trip to Perhentian!! Must save as much as i can to get there XD.. And i've promised myself to get a nice tan for my island-getaway next time!! (must get the golden tanning oil!!) :D

nice seaside view

like this pic really much

on the way to snorkelling

posing with Teresa

Billy's acting cool

Weeping

U cry when u are feeling sad.
U feel really bad when ur life is full with sorrowness.
No one can help u out.
No one can really be "the one" to comfort ur bleeding heart.
U just stand by ur own.
Alone.

Whatssup

Just woke up, and the feeling of being drunken was so good. Yesterday was awesome, Leng and i went to Mei's house and had some wine. Thank u Leng and Mei, for spending time with me and trying to comfort me. But now... Urghhh... headache is killing me!!

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Last friday was my dear friend Teresa's big day. So the nite before her big day, we bought some cakes and had a lil' celebration in my car while we were heading to 1u for movie. U know how many cakes we bought?? Guess what... 2 slices!! Just 2 slices of secret recipe. No we were not saving our money, it just because there were only 3 of us, i mean the members of the BestBuddiesGengEver. SoOo... if we bought one whole cake, it'll be wasted :D

While i was driving, billy lightened up the candle and we sang The Song to teresa. We sang so loud till our ear-drum nearly burst out. Then, they take turns to "feed" me the cakes (i was driving) and i'd ended up eaten most of the cakes compared to them!! Muahaha...

We watched Step Up and i felt so into those dancing scenes. Great... i must say. Worth a watch.

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What i did on last whole week:

1. Sit in MPH for 4 hours reading books. Alone.
   
2. Seen 3 movies - The convenant, Open Season, and Step Up.
   
3. Spending times at putrajaya bridge with my geng. It's a great place to relax my mind.
4. Endless window shopping.
5. Eat eat eat.
6. Fell in love with curry katsu don.
7. Shouted in my car.
8. Listened endless time of Avril Lavigne.
9. Spent most of my time with my geng. Im afraid of being alone.
10. Went to Midvaley once.
11. 1 Utama 3 times.
12. Alamanda 3 or 4 times.
13. Not drinking any latte or mocha.
14. Driving crazily.
    
15. Drank an alcoholic soda.
16. Finished 2 bottles of red wine with my friends.
17. Had my first japanese class.
    

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Okay... should stop here. Cos it seems endless.
Adieu.

The Lake House

Seen this movie again since i've save it in my laptop. Tho it's not the first time i watch this movie, but the feeling is still there. Feel touched.

It's a touching love story about Kate (Sandra Bullock) 's conceit that u wait for the right time and for the right one.

Hope this is real.

If u wait, u'll get ur The One.
So, i'll be waiting for u.

Thank you

Thank you my friends, for:

• listening to me when i was helpless. U guys make me feel that i'm not alone.
  
• giving me alot of advice and i really apreciate it.
• spending time with me, chatting with me.
• watching movie with me.
• treating me nice foods :)
• listening to my awful singing in an enclosed spaces... sorry my friends. But it makes me feel better.
  
• telling me tons of jokes and keep making fun of me which make me laugh. Yea, at least i laugh.
• keep supporting me.
• lepak-ing with me.
• doing nothing but just sitting beside of me.

U guys are really sweet. Don't worry bout me. I'll get it through and live my life to the best :)
Thank you. *huggies*

p/s: thank you my dearest mummy for giving me endless support. don't worry bout me. I'll take a good care of myself. And for someone: I'll study hard and will not giving up for my life.. don't worry. take care.

undiscovered

Honestly, i've never cried so much in my 20-years-of-life.
The amount of tears that i had last nite were greater than the tears that i had in the past 20 years.
Must be alot huh. yea. U bet.

I've cried woefully when i closed my eyes. Cos can't stop thinking of him, the precious time that we've spent together in the past few years, what he had done to me which made me so happy just like the best princess in the world, what he cooked for me, the butter cake, the hugs, the kisses, and so many unstated matters. And think about how he used to be so caring so adorable so loving...
And think about how much i loved him, how deep it is. But, it's just too lil' too late.

So, i didn't sleep for the whole nite, just crying and figuring out. I stopped crying for bout 1 min, then i cried again, and it continued over and over again.

Untitled

Honestly, i'm totally helpless now. The Thing that im not wishing to happen The Most has happened. Yea. U Know what i'm talking rite??

I had never cried so hard for my life. NEVER. And it's damn so PAIN.

Think i'd heard the breaking sound of my heart.

But it's just the beginning of my life. It's the beginning of my life to let me stand on my own, to become more mature, to figure out what i want, to learn to be more responsible, and to love myself before i could love anybody else.

U have to really feel how pain is when u really fall down, though it really HURT, but this is the way that u can learn to grow up, to become more mature.

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Dear my beloved,

I love u SO much. U know it. If it's the best way to let u feel better, i'll do it. So now, what is left for me to do is to stay away from u, to let u alone. Sorry cos i've made u so suffered on what i've done. But maybe like what u've said, it's the time to let us continue our life of our own, it's no use to continue on "us" if the probs were still there. Don't worry, i'll stand on my own and continue on with my life. I'll be responsible to myself. And Thank You. Cos u have bring so much happiness into my life, and let me know what's the colour rainbow has. And u let me realize that i could love a person that much. U might care or might not, but i do hope that u'll be smiling when u think back on whatever we hav done together happilly. Lastly, REMEMBER those things that i've told u before i hung up the phone. Just pls don't forget.

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Can't sleep. Blogging is the best thing that i could do now. ahh.. feel much better after this. And thanks to my dear gf shou mei. Thanks for ur listening and ur comforting. Not to mention, my lovely sis is the Best-Ever-Sista-In-The-World. Feel so touched after received ur msg. *huggies*

"To get through this" is the thing that i could do now.

Fugging up

Warning: Don't read this if u are in a great mood now. Cos I'M NOT.

So Fugging up right now. So emo now. Cried. But It's helpless.

What will u feel if:
- ur loved one seems doesn't care for u as he used to be??

- u called ur babe and told him how much u missed him but the answer u've got from is "i'm freakin tired" but not "i miss u too"??

- the previous statement has happened for quite sometime.

- u just stay at home for 4 days continuously?? and not goin out ANYWHERE??

- can't hug ur babe for more than 4 days.

- so if u can't hug him = u've not seen him for the days i've mentioned.

- u've not heard any "i love u" sort of words spilled out from ur babe for unidentified period of time.

- u called ur babe and he always says "i'm busy now".

- u keep sitting in front of the laptop instead of goin anywhere, doin anything other than facing the laptop.

- everyone that u wanna chat with seems so busy.

- u are feeling breathless

- ur eyes are puffy than ever.

- the bad things keep happen?

Sure u'll feel so fugging up. For sure.
Indeed, i'm feeling like i'm in the hell now and so fugging up.

Bored

Too bored. So here's my new layout again... :)
Got it from blogskins... i thk it's quite nice gua.

Currently been watching j-drama. Dr Kotos Clinic is a nice drama thou. Shibasaki Kou is so stunning with her short hair look and her excellent acting. On the other hand, another drama which is very interesting and hilarious - Nodame Cantabile. It's a comedy and the story is related to classical music. Damn funny, i must say. This drama is my favourite among the dramas im watching currently. Ueno Juri ALSO with a short hair look which is really pretty. Even Ai Oisuka ALSO cut her hair short!! Wondering why is so many japs actress cut their hair short. Maybe it's a trend now in Jap. Have a thought in my mind too - cut my hair short short... but im scared O.o

Anyway, there's few new-released j-dramas which worth a watch, and u can review the ranting of them in half-banana's blog.

Omg omg... result is out now... *sweats*
Gotta stop here...

Belief

My heart is falling apart now,
it'd happened again and again,
but i kept convincing myself everything gonna be alrite.

Tears keep dropping,
heart keeps hurting,
by u.

Need ur comfort and care,
but i'm still alone,
here.

Wondering, keep wondering,
if it's worth,
to wait for the miracle,
to make me shine again.

h.o.l.i.d.a.y

Woke up as usual in the afternoon. Had my lunch which was nice. Nothing special happened. Then watched greys anatomy season one which im still watchin since few days ago. Meredith is SO gorgeous, her voice is SO nice (sexy), her eyes is SO stunning!! Im SO into Greys Anatomy!! Speaking of other characters in GA, i like George too. I mean he's so cute, clumsy when he's with Meredith... Haa.. Wanna dl Gilmore Girls as well but my hardisk is so full! dammit... Gotta buy a portable one so i can dl all of them :D Haven't dl the latest ep 4 & 5 of Gilmore Gilrls.. miss 'em... Lorelai, Rory... i'll meet u gals very very soon. And Alexie, don't forget wat u've said ya :p

Wanna continue my devil wears prada book-reading too. But am not free currently. Will read it during my free time (lookin to the ceiling, lying on the bed, wondering wat i wan to do, feeling damn boring...)

Saturday... im wondering if there's any saturday-nite-girls'-outing later on :D

watching GA while eating this so yummy-looking strawberries

Friday

Yesterday was friday, 28th. Not 13th. So i supposed it was a good day. Went 1u with my bf and we had a movie, operation undercover. Not bad though. At least it's better than the previous Hong Kong gangster movie. We had lunch at japs restaurant. Ordered agedashi tofu which is my all time favourite, and chicken teriyaki. He had a gekikara ramen and i had a curry rice (coz felt not fulfilled by the curry rice that i had at ton chan (i spelled wrongly on previous post-toh kun). The tofu was nice, n the chicken, n the curry... but we cant finish it coz we were too full. After lunch, we went on a shopping spree. Bought a jeans at Topshop, then a green tight shirt at Miss Selfridges which both got a 10% off (membercard), then a shoes at Nose, and a 30% off ck jeans which is new arrival. Like mad..man. I thk it's ok coz i've not shopping for quite some time :p

p/s: go CK with ur frens, buy 5 pieces of jeans or clothing and u'll get 50% off for each of them! (1 pieces for 10%, 2 for 20% and so on until 50% off)

What a day...

Woke up in the afternoon.. was bit dizzy coz i've slept for 12 hours! hell... never slept for so long for this couple of weeks.. just like a zombie u know.. slept at 3am even i've finished my exam.. sometimes 5am.. imagine that..

Okie.. so after had my lunch, went out to meet half-banana at midvalley.. chose to drive alone instead of Ktm coz the weather was hot.. just sick of it. After we bought our ticket for The Prestige, went MPH coz she wanna find a book. Then we head out to Jusco to have something to eat :D We bought some sushi and Tako too... yam yam... and of coz we bought ice blended mocha at San Francisco and sneak it in to the cinema... talking of mocha, it's damn cheap man.. buy one free one!! 16 bucks for two! So, forget about high calories, just enjoy the drink!

About the movie, not bad though. Hugh Jackman was the charming one and Scarlet Johansson was gorgeous :D The story was in a non-chronological method which sometime quite confusing. The ending was quite predictable as some hints'd given in the movie, but u gotta observe those carefully.

Noticed a black velvet cardigan in MNG... Damm nice le wei... but it cost around 140 bucks :(
argh... not really expensive BuT... i have no enough money to buy it.. for now la. aihs.. run out of cash le... *sigh*

another cutie...

Erm... like american cocker spaniel too... my bf's house have one.. just now resqusted him to let me take care the cute 'lil doggie named Lucky for a few days but was not managed to get over his permissoin coz it's not his dog anyway. *sob*

Can i have a cocker spaniel? *hint* :p

i want a doggie !

Suddenly thinking of having a dog (actually it's not suddenly, hav this feelings since a long time ago) erm.. perharps a pug? it has a tightly curled tail and broad flat wrinkled muzzle which makes it looks dumb and clumsy.. which i like.. and it's cute.. I thk pug is quite easy to handle compare with other hairry doggie coz its coat is fine, smooth, soft, and gloosy,neither hard nor woolly. So need not so much grooming :D It's an even-tempered breed, exhibiting stability, playfulness, great charm, dignity and an outgoin, loving dispositon.

Wondered when can i get a doggie.. coz it needs lotsa "investment".. *wink*

cute pug isn't it??

gathering~

Had gathering with my police cadet friends... Some of them didn't get to attend.. Too bad.. Anyway, it's been a long time we never seen each other, nearly 1 year and some even more than 1 year :p

Had a really great time thou... we chatted happily and talked about our recent happenings & our good old days..

Took some pics but it was too bad coz some of them left quite early... i mean the couples :D
And i've forgotten that i've brought my digital cam... Just realised after the three couples left.. Too late :(

So... here it goes... some frens of mine from police cadets :D

From left: Pin Yuen, Ker Liy, Kai Xiang, Kenny, Me, & Hsieh Chin

newly-born!

Im feeling bit bored with my current blog's lay-out... It's dull, making me feel lifeless.. SOoo, here comes my new lay-Out... It's not so dull now, or should i say -- colourful? :p Hope it'll cheer me up for the coming future :)

It's the 1st week of hols which gonna last 3 bloody weeks. Just imagine how im gonna spend the rest of it coz i've started to freak out for wondering wat i should do for my whole hols. *yawn*
After wondered around at my "secret garden", i've realised i got plenty of things to do during my long-haul holidays actually...

- finish up the grey's anatomy season 1
- gilmore girls season 5 as well (fall in love with 'em!!)
- newly released japs drama which casting by Shibasaki Kou
- finish up books-reading (the devil wears prada & the whole shopaholic series written by Sophie Kinsella
- dl the songs which i wanted to dl since a long time ago
- yam cha with my secondary frens
- shopping (gosh... sales sales sales everywhere!!)
- watching movie (city of angels starring by Nicholas Cage & the lake house)

and etc.

Erm.. but it seems kinda impossible to finish all of 'em though :D

and even contented?

Bac from The Curve. Without Starbucks. Nevermind. Saved up my money then n reduced some calories as well.. So.. wad to do with contented?

Coz i went out yam cha with my frens: yee leng n shou mei at C-Beach cafe at kajang prima. lol. Nice gals to hang out with on a saturday nite =D Chat for so long n we managed "tarik keluar" another of our fren as well which seems SO busy for the whole month. Continued our talk in my house and we had some drink as well. Shou mei's face was so blushed!! And i felt a 'lil dizzy after a couple of drink but it's okay after that. hehe.. Ate kuaji together with the drink and we even played UNO together! some of us got "blur" coz of the drink. Hang out together till almost 3 am.. Damn tired but now am updating my blog...Still..

My bed is calling me now... Am heading to my bed...
Nites.. Or should i say good morning? :p

contented~

Today (should be considered as yesterday--its 3am now in da morning) went The Curve with my frens. I've not seen suet yee for quite a long time (n now she's back from sarawak for holidays) and have not met half-banana, shou mei, and hui wen for... I thk its 2 or 3 months? So we decided to have an outing together, five of us.. which was nice :)

We reached Cineplex at 11am n we had our movie which started 10min right after we reached ther.. quite a rush.. But since we wanna finish it earlier... so.. Anyway, we watched the World Trade Centre. Nicholas Cage was awesome as always n its a touchful movie though.. *teary eyed* Had learned something from the movie: we must try to help the ppl around us, we must try to giv n take, we must tell our loved one that we love 'em.. n if u've not done this before, pls do this NOW. Tell the ppl that u love so much:" i love ya.." If not, maybe u'll feel regret someday.

It's time for lunch after the movie-hour. We lepak from the Cineplex to The Curve n had not decided wat to eat -.-" Actually wanna try shabu shabu which is just newly opening but no ppl inside... quite scary :p Anyway, had lunch in Toh-kun (if i not mistaken) afterthat.. Ordered a curry rice.. ish.. Never tried this kinda curry rice before. Just a few "slices" of pork inside with the curry. It's slices but not pieces.. so its REALLY TINY.. and it's even more expensive than the katsu don which hav a big pork chop!! Not fair le.. and the miso soup is YUKsss.. not nice at all.. some weird taste in it.. Wat the... I swear i'll never go there again! ever! Despite the food thingy, we had a great time there.. we chat, laugh.. was so much fun :p

Had a walk after our meal. Went Borders n had some browse-through. Noticed a book.. The Ultimate Workout Book.. It has all kinda workout which is simple to do.. even included yoga n some pilates as well.. Looks like it gonna help me a lot--->if i buy it =D Have to save lotsa pocket money then though it sounds Impossible :p

Ate Baskin-robbins on our way bac to Cineplex.. rasberry cheesecake ice-cream with some graham nuts in it... yummy... but have to REALLY start my workout now!! Let's get started~

differences between friend & bf

seen this in a forum. tot it's so true... :

If just friend,

• Will find u online in midnite, and chat untill really late.

• He'll call u out n play, n tell u to give up homework n skip ur class.

• When u r ill, he'll care bout u n say something to comfort u.

• He'll talk good bout u, u'll think he's great.

• No matter wad it is, he'll do things to fit u, so that u'll be happy.

• He'll say that he'll giv the best to u.

• He'll buy u "mid-meal", deliver it, n drive u to school and bac.

• He only thinks about now.

If boyfriend,

• When wee u online in midnite, will tell u to offline.

• He'll tell u to finish the homework a.s.a.p., or wan to discuss over homework.

• When u r ill, he'll care for u so much until u feel annoying, n force u to go to the doc.

• All the things that he says, r meant to care about u, but usually sounds like commanding, u'll think: why he did that?

• He'll help u see if its right or wrong, but u thk that he cares/worries too much.

• He can be only sure that when u r with him, he's the happiest person.

• He'll help u buy "mid-meal" but he'll remind u, "eat wad is healthier".

• He'll drive u to school, but only when it's the same route cos he cannot skip class, cos if he skips class, his grade will be bad, n if his grade is bad, then he won't get a good job. then how his n ur life will be better? he'll think of long term.

• He can see the future, how he would work hard to give the best to u.

dramatic~

Woke up by my mum when i was dreaming... something had happened in my family. Really messed up now... it's hard to say it thou... anywhere, hope that the prob can be solved as soon as possible... *sigh* Anyway, another prob has been solved :P *happy*

Han, wanna tell u something that is so important... "i wanna spend my life with u...for the rest of my life..." Yea... problem do occurs between us. but i strongly believe that we can solve it out together if we hold our hands tight and with our trust and commitment to each other.

Till then, looking forward to see ya~

p/s: hope u'll get well soon...

13th

Heard this from somewhere:
"If its a 13th on a friday, there's something bad goin to happen."
I thk it's true,
It's a truth.

let go...

My temper are moody than the rapid-changing weather,
making u feel so sick of it.

U've tried to please me everytime,
but there's always some reason for me to feel not good enough,
and it's hard at the end of the day,
cos it making u sick too.

Im trying to change n get rid of my bad habits,
its gonna take time though,
but now we r short of time,
cos u're seems to lose ur patience now.

Thou sometime i cant stand of ur temper,
but i've tried,
i've tried to tolerate with it.
Cos i love u.
And i love u so much.

Maybe its time to let go,
cos there're no straight line in us anymore,
and it distracts us from happiness,
pulling us to the world of darkness...
endless fighting,
quarreling...
It turns me upside-down.

Its my fault, i know.
"I'm sorry", i said.
but u just ignored it.
I've spend all my time waiting,
for that second chance,
but its just another long haul nite.

So, here i come...
here i come to let u go......

Hmm...

Hooray!! Finally. Finished my final exam... should be happy with it but somehow, am feeling lonely... cos the person which i missed the most is not here. Wanna spend sometime with him but he seems so busy... haih...

Planned to go kl with fren but in the end my fren cant make it... wad the... ffk me...*sob* Anyway, went alamanda for lunch with teresa n billy. Ate till my heart out... We ordered 2 pizza-one regular n one personal, a nice garden salad, chicken wings, both garlic bread n bread stix... ish ish... Hmm..for sure, we couldnt finish the pizza... so we had a take-away. Its not good to waste food anyway :p

After the meal, we went starbucks.. going starbucks is like a "habit" for us now. haha... bought a hot latte while teresa ordered a hot chocolate hazelnut n billy had a double expresso. Hmm... my latte was as usual... not too heavy... but a bit creamer than usual....too much steamed milk maybe. Billy's expresso (no...its expresso x2) was bitter than ever!! i mean...its sOoo bitter man... teresa's hot chocolate hazelnut was nice thou :D It taste good when it was not so hot :p Gotta try it nex time...lol

This meal was bit heavy for my diet now. But today since is our last day for our very first sem, so decided to have something "good" before it ends :D

Bye my dear frens. Hopefully u guys'll have a great holidays. till then, see u guys after 3 weeks. will miss ya :p

day-dreaming

I'm so not in the mood of studying... shit... still one more paper on the go but yet i haven finish studying it. Looking at the notes just keep making me thinking of so many things...

I want a romantic getaway to any beautiful beach with my guy(maybe Koh-samui...maybe bali...or maybe maldives...arghh), lying there for the whole evening, sun-tanning, some spa perhaps? I want shopping cos so many sales are goin on. I want beatiful shoes, lovely clothes, a perfect jeans, a hair makeover...(cant stop of writting this :p) I wanna become slimmer, thinner, lighter... I wanna keep my promise-do as many exercise as i can! I want sitting in the starbucks reading lotsa magazine, drinking the oh-so-high-calories hot mocha, looking on the ppl passing by, so relaxing... I want to go a luxurious restaurant...eat till my heart out...

Anyway... it's just a imagination or a dream that im having for this very moment.
Arghh... gotta go to study now.
If not... my last paper will screw up :p

isn't it ironic?

Sometimes just feel that life is so ironic,
there is always so much incongruity between wad is expected,
and wad actually occurs.

It's like rain on ur wedding day,
it's a free ride when u've already paid,
it's a true heart that u've given to but they just treat it like rubbish,
it's a care that u've shown but it's worthless in their eyes,
who would have thought it figures...

It's a traffic jam when u're already late,
it's like ten thousand spoons when all u need is a knife,
it's like meeting ur man of ur dreams,
and then meeting his good looking queer...
isn't it ironic...don't u think?

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on u,
when u think everything's okay and everything's alrite.
Life has a funny of helping u,
when u think everything's gone wrong and everything's screw up.

In the end,
i've found out that wad life did to me is nothing,
but i've learned something from it.

U grieve u learn, u choke u learn,
u laugh u learn, u choose u learn,
u pray u learn, u ask u learn,
u live u learn.

Lyric: This Never Happened Before

Nice cute video~

This Never Happened Before by Paul McCartney
I'm very sure, this never happened to me before
I met u and now i'm sure
This never happened before

Now i see, this is the way it's supposed to be
I met u and now i see
This is the way it should be

This is the way should be, for lovers
They shouldn't go it alone
It's not so good when u're on ur own

So come to me, now we can be wat we want to be
I love u and now i see
This is the way it should be
This is the way it should be

This is the way should be, for lovers
They shouldn't go it alone
It's not so good when u're on ur own

I'm very sure. this never happened to me before
I met u and now i'm sure
This never happened to me before (this never happened to me before)
This never happened to me before (this never happened to me before)
This never happened to me before (this never happened to me before)
This never happened before

Lyric: (I Can't Seem To) Make You Mine

(I Can't Seem To) Make You Mine by The Clientele
In the silence of the garden
Moss arizing on the wind
And the beast is pondering love love love
'Till the rusty nail grow dim

I can't seem to make u mine
Through the long and lonely night
And i try so hard, darling
But the crowd pulled u away
Through the rythm and the rain
And the ivy coiled around my hand

So i lingered with people
In the silence August glade
But the rain has brought the night
And the night has brought the rain

I can't seem to make u mine
Through the long and lonely night
And i try so hard, darling
But the crowd pulled u away
Through the rythm and the rain
And the ivy coiled around my hand

addicted

I think i fell in love with caffein.
Though i'll not feeling well everytime after i drink it,
but i just cant help of drinking it.

Went to The Curve's Borders with friends,
Ordered a hot mocha,
reminding me of my best friend in my secondary school,
sitting in a corner all by myself,
reading the notes,
browsing through the magazines...
wad a lazy wednesday nite...

P/S: Im gonna die soon cos of last-minutes studying...

fully loaded

Im so fully loaded now.
I mean my stomach.
My stomach is fully loaded with foods.
It's 1.20am now,
and i was just bac from supper,
so i had taken 5 meals today.
Hell...
Can't control myself from eating junk food.
God, pls help me. Cry*

miami vice

Thought this movie may be not bad. So, went times square with my bf for the movie. But i thk i was wrong, right after the movie had started.

Though colin was "man" enough, but im not really into that kinda "man", and im not impressed by his "misai" after all.

But Gong Li was so gorgeous though she had become older. She was so sexy in the movie. Make me want to start my exercise schedule right now :p Her hot OL look turned me on... arghh... wat i should do to look as the same as her??

Sigh...

"lovely" night

Not sleeping for the whole nite isn't great at all especially cos of those bloody assignment. Now, i've found out it's pretty scary actually if u r sitting at the library foyer for the whole nite, doin the bloody assignment.

First, u can hardly find a place to charge up ur laptop cos it's full with ppl who are using the plug too. Second, there are lotsa lotsa mosquitoes waiting for u there n they'll kiss ur body again n again and finally u'll get really crazy. Next, sitting with a im-so-sick fren. U'll get affected by ur fren if he/she is under a very "critical condition"... sneezing around, coughing non-stoply... and the nex morning u'll be same as him/her. If u r goin to the toilet, Be Ware...as the crocoaches will be watched out on u...(Cold*) And u have to prepare a jacket as the weather cant be predicted. U'll be freezing through out the nite if it's raining and the wind is getting stronger and stronger...

Finally, u've got sick. Great*

look what u've done

Have u ever had this feeling, u wanna control ur diet so much, but u ended up with eating more than u used to. U wanna keep those killing-u-faster food away from ur sight, but ur hand just cant help touching them and putting them in ur mouth. Everytime after u did so, u'll feel guilty n keep blaming urself. But, it'll happen all over again after all.

After some time, u've mentioned there are an increase in ur weight lil' by lil', day by day. Then u've started to seek someone for help by asking them how to look thinner. U even have decided to carry out some carbo n stretches in order to look fitter. But in reality, u'll be sleeping in ur lovely bed every early in the morning, refuse to be awake... Or u'll find some other reasons not to go for jogging in the evening...:p

In the end of the day, u'll be amazed by the fat tissues that lie underneath ur body expecially ur tummy, and u'll be sreaming n yelling n even crying...

And so, the statement that i've mentioned above will be happened all over again. Not to mention the ppl around u will be sick by listening to ur crap everyday. So, u really have to do something if not u'll become a big fat slob very soon...

I'm back...

It seems like it's been a long time i didn't keep my blog updated. Pls not to be mistaken that i'm lazy, i was just busying with my assignment and quizzes...:p Lotsa things had happened this week and it turned me upside down. Cos of some reasons, i told lie to my bf and at last he found out the truth (oOps)... As u know, we had a fight then. I was really sad and regret on wat i had done and i told him wat i was thinking about. After few days, he was okay with me and started to chat "willingly"with me too...hehe...(phew..)

After this phenomenon, here comes the bloody assignment. I couldn't have a good sleep on those few days and my brain was hollow...There was nothing inside... After struggling with the ideas, my lil' assignment born finally. Oh...do u thk that i could sleep erlier after this? Nonono... cos the nite right after i handed my assignment to my tutor, i had to help my fren out with her assignment cos she was helping me when i was struggling with my assignment. And since i was pretty free so i gotta help her out. Wad a tiring day...

Tuesday...It's a suprising day actually. Here's the story... i was bit disappointed when i heard my fren that she cant join me for dinner and i had to dig my another good fren out to have dinner with me. We went Alamanda and ended up with this: he was looking at me eating a so-called prawn mee with an empty mouth. erm...it was quite embarrassing as i'm not used to eat alone and kept "staring" by ppl...lol... After the dinner, i went to my club's meeting and felt a lil' bit "sad" cos no one celebrate my bday with me...haiz... And so the moment i saw my fren switch off the light, and my two best frens, Teresa and Billy appeared on the other side of the door, with a cake on teresa's hands, i was sOoo shocked. Nothing could described my feeling on that moment except happy. We guys had a really good time that nite cos some of them kept "buli" me with the cream and my face nearly "damaged" by the smelly cream (watch out billy and chee way...lol) Fun and memorable nite...:) Thank you, frens...

The next afternoon i had lunch with a bunch of my frens at KFC. Haha...guess wad...i had finished all my money cos i'd "belanja" all of them...erm...gotta tighten my expenditure then...:p
would someone donate me some $$?? lol... Right then, i went out with my dear to celebrate my bday. we went KLCC and he bought me a bracelet and a bag. I lurve them expecially the bracelet!! :p We had our dinner in jap restaurant and we chat happily like we used to be. Hopefully i could spent my every single bday with him... You're the man, han...

Bac to reality. Thursday...it was a disaster. First, my roommate had a cut by my knife. She used the knife to cut something but she cut her hand instead. :p Then, my car was driven by my fren n he din noticed that a car was coming n...."doom"... Luckily, it din paralyzed...

Hopefully my strength is good enough to handle everything.

tired...

after a long haul night (it's juz 12:30am) , finally i've done my assignment. But the stupid microsoft words suddenly stucked and didn't have any reponse. Arghhhh....this happened right before i decided to send my presentation slides to my group leader. Honestly, i hate this pc cos it always lack everytime when im using it...ish ish...

And my grandma's condition haven't had any improvement yet. It's even worse compare with the time that she just fell down. Her brain got a pretty huge internal blood-clotting since the accident. Doctor said that she cant bear to have an operation and so we just have to let it be and see what we could do then. Few days after, she looked much more better and can recognized us as well. But then, she fell down again as she was walking around in the car porch. Her condition become worsen and she cant recognized any of us now. She just keep mumbling and even yelling at us whenever she feels unhappy. She's act like a small kid now. And now, she can't walk anymore as she has no energy to do so. Looking at her now making me really sad. She's really having a tough time now and i do hope her will get well soon. May god bless u, grandma...

love me, love me not?

I've watched the break-up yesterday.
the movie is really something..
and it makes me keep thinking about what love is.

Love.. is all about understanding,
u need to be understanding in ur partner's feeling,
and not just understand urs,
cos we need to share our thoughts in love together,
we can't be self-centered.

Love.. is all about caring,
not just everyday playing games,
hanging out with your buddies,
but u have to spent time together and care about each other.

U need to give some flowers for ur love one sometime,
cos every gal loves flowers actually.

To be a couple,
both of u have to trust in each other really well,
keep supporting her/him.
Sometimes, gals just having some platonic friendship with their guy friends,
and they never thinking of something alse.
so guys, keep in mind..
to not to fight with ur gf about their so-called close guy friends,
cos they are really nothing compare with u,
and the most important thing is..
she really loves u...

happy day

I woke up so early cos need to fetch my siblings go to tuition which is always my "job" if im home. I thought my sleeping mood will be last for the whole day.

But, fortunately, my mood have changed since afternoon... It really make me so happy cos you are so sweet... The panmee really nice... thanks a lot ya...

What u've told me i'll always keep in my mind. lov ya...