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Hey ya (if there's still anyone reading this). I've abandoned the blog for the longest time, I know. Guess I've lost my mojo in blogging /writing since the past year. Sometimes when something really strike me up in my mind, I just couldn't state them down in words before I could still remember.

Hence, the longest-ever hiatus up to date. Hmm, what an excuse.

So. Life's been good for me, if the working life doesn't count. I have started working since June when I was still soaking in the holiday mood which I've always longed for. The typical working hours and workload just couldn't make me smile and laugh from the bottom of my heart anymore like those days back in my uni life.

Sounds like I don't satisfy enough for my job. Yea, I guess? Maybe I am not sure with the path that I'm walking on right now; whether is it wise for me to stand still for..say... the next 5 years. I just keep thinking whether I will be sick it or regret of choosing this. I am STILL sucks at making choices if I really don't have a concrete idea of it. Anyway, sometimes I would think that this career path has good potential, definitely and will always be challenging despite some of its seemingly-tedious daily routine work. The point of this path is, you have to deal with PEOPLE, poeple and people - both internal and external ''customers''. But of course, management skill is utterly important; same goes to decision-making, multi-tasking, and pandai-pandai ing (that's what I think a freshie should have, as normally we freshie would never learn to say ''no'' to those tasks which are not within your work area).

So, be pandai-pandai at all times if not you will just end up NOT finishing the things that you are supposed to do.

When you are not getting right-things done, you are just not doing the right things.

"What is your ideal working place? And what is your dream job or at least having a job which will make you a happy person?"

Those are some of the questions running in my mind now.

Less than 3 months I'll be done with my contract job and HOPEFULLY I could have a holiday to loosen up my mind for quite a bit.

But that said, I should start looking for another job if I'm not staying in my current company. Hmm... now off to bed..

Here they come

I just woke up from a sweet dream that pretty much sounds like this:

"The sweet boy gave the girl a sweet surprise by traveling all the way from the Venus (which was weird cause I heard that's where women come from) to the Land (where the girl's staying at). He told the girl not to worry about anything and it's going to be two awesome weeks. They spent their time happily together. Walking side by side along the never-ending-walkways. Spraying each other water while watering the garden. Playing games together. Teasing each other while the girl kicked the guy cause he tickled her. Eating nice food together. Holding hands. Looking into each others' eyes. But then the image got blurry and the boy faded away...."

That's the time I woke up. And now the nightmares are coming. They are knocking on my door. Now.

I want to run away but I can't. It's depressing.

Of daydreaming and rambling about anything

If you had seen the real Emily Lin, the words that you could probably think of for describing her would be - anything but ordinary, oh-it's-just-so-normal, or maybe geez-please-get-her-a-change. Well, if only I could think of any suitable word to describe it - I think I've got one now. Which is a BIG capital "D" or "B".

Aha.

I know, I have always been showing up with a t-shirt and a jeans with a pair of sandal (or you might be seeing me substituting the jeans with a folded-jeans shorts pairing with a pair of flip-flops). Okay, I will dress up occasionally (which is really rare), putting up some feminine-like top (with a softer and lighter texture which is no good for me at all, cos I've put some weight on), but dressing in such a way just making me feeling duller than ever. Be it the casual look or the latter look.

So now I've started to daydreaming again - daydreaming about what should I be wearing on the next hour, going out for some drinks with couple of friends in a well-decorated and warmed ambiance bar.

Should I stop telling you that I should be studying now already? *final exam is just one week away!! Grrr..*
Just a short rambling about what is in my mind now.

I'm gonna say it's all about Topshop. Not that I'm a Topshop fanatic or because of London (please don't ask me why I like it, it's reasonless), but I was just browsing through their collection and found out that some interesting outfits that I'd LOVE to have.

First of all, I'd like to take off my red-framed glasses which I've been wearing for years and replace it with dark-browned contact lens instead. Despite having the same bob hair-cut, it would be interesting if I had a bangs to cover my forehead up.

And so the transformation has begun!

Firstly, I'd rather not being too dramatic so I would just replace my top with a designer t-shirt by Ann Sofie Back (featured under "The Boutique" of Topshop). What has drawn my eyes on it is the belt - it's being tied and sticked on the shirt and I think it has made the shirt more unique to a certain extent.


£28.00

Then, I'd paired it with a double pocket bubble hem skirt (£28.00), also from Topshop. I personally think that the wool texture and a bit of fluffy cutting would cover up my growing hip quite well (or non?). What's your idea then?





Here comes the high square toed shoes. And I think it's KEWL alrite!


£60.00

And a bag would finally finish the look. A cool vintage large stitch satchel which I have always been dreaming of.

£60.00

Or this. A small cross body bag with buckle detail, 100% Polyurethane.


£15.00

You might be saying and being sarcastic," Oh Em, this is so-not-you!"

Now, it might be the money matters for holding me up, and probably the opinions of what the people around think about me. Ya, I hate to say this, but sometimes it's something that I would mind about.

But of course, I will wear what I want to wear in future if only I could have the enough $$ to spend on.

Heh, I told you it's going to be a short rambling. :D *runs away*

I'm an extraterrestrial

GOD. What was I thinking about? Such idiot I am [still]. Why did I expect for so many things? The biggest hope you have, the biggest disappointment you are gonna get.

I'm not going to cry. My lullabies will do the job.

Listening songs are making me feeling better.

And I wanna get out of here, but I can't.

I'm trapped. I'm trapped!



Picture taken from DevianART.

The assymetrical-haired me

I had a new haircut few days back, hoping that the new-me will make a change in a good way in my life. Well, that's just make no difference. May be it gets worse.

excessive cold drinks + cold beers + tequila sunrise + sips of margarita + sips of bloody mary + days of late-night sleep = sore throat + just-kill-me cough + flu + slight fever + assignments + etc. nightmare

This hell-long equation just ain't cool at all.

It sounds weird but I just ate that

As you can see from the title, yea, I ate this for my lunch.



It's porridge, a mixture of potatoes, carrots, groundnuts, hot dogs, fish balls, chicken breast meat altogether. What a weird combination.

I suppose it's a concoction.

Wow. I had a concoction for my lunch. And thank god, I'm still alive.

At last!

Hi guys!! I'm back!! At last I've done with my final exams. *Phew* Finally it has come to an end. Wohooo.. I'm exhausted and having severe headache currently which's making me couldn't stop banging my head off the wall, but now I've got to prepare for dinner with my cousin and my sister at Midvaley. Yay.. And not to mention we're going to watch a movie! :D Well, today is the sneak preview of Pirates of the Caribbean. But I guess the ticket will be sold out by the time I got there anyway. So will be watching Blades of the Glory, perharps. Has anyone seen this movie before? Is it nice?

Ok.. will be back to cyberspace after tomorrow. I missed it soooo much!

Till then~ cheers!

Oh God I've had a long hair!

Ranting time.

Well, I'm suppose to be studying instead of blogging here. But see what I've found in my laptop??

This!!


Oh my my.. Now only I realised I've had such a long hair before this. But I've cut it off. This photo was taken during my part-time teaching job in kindergarten.

Why I cut it off? Just simply because the weather is hot and I want a new hair style badly.

I like the long hair. But I much prefer the short-hair me though some people still prefer the long-hair me.

What do ya think?

p/s: Gotta go back to study. I wished I could burn the books and notes!! Burn them all!! But I couldn't because I don't want to fail my exams :(

I can't stop banging my head on the wall

Warning. This is a ranting and rambling post of my coming final tests. Final exam is just around the corner and I am suppose to study right this moment. But I just couldn't make it. I am tired. Back from swimming and eating dinner.


I should eat a cheesecake just now. It would make me feel better.

Yesterday dropped by my friend's place to check out something. And yes I've got something awesome. Well it's about J-pop music. Rock bands from Japan. I am gonna write about it soon. Maybe :p

This is my friend [anonymous] who is majoring in Japanese now, playing her guitar. She was playing Wonderwall by OASIS, YUI's songs, and The Cranberries. [If I'm not mistaken] But anyway not really remember what else song she played though because I was concentrating and attempting to shoot some "viewable" pictures of her and the guitar, but failed in the end :(

I just wanna sleep. I don't wanna study anymore. GOD, I am having a test tomorrow.

Ok. Time to sleep. Nites.

Love it. Shall I, or shall I not?

I was not really free practically yesterday afternoon but I couldn't stop myself from browsing through the internet. And the outcome of that was:

I found this picture from charada.


Notice the lady on the left with a short chic hair, and hey it's a cute looking fringe. Cute non?

Should I get that kinda fringe? Or should I not?

As you can see, she's got a gorgeous hair colour, wavy hair. But what about me? I have black hair.. it's like - totally black. Holy black. But I'm proud of it :p And my hair is not the kind of lovely wavy, but a messy messy. *shakes head*

I've had a fringe back then during my Form 6 and it was kinda thick-looking with them "lying peacefully" on the top of my eyebrows. Haha. The only difference is the fringe is going to be matched with a short hair this time. Just look like the picture above.


Hmm..

Ok.. now I'm going to think about that again by spending my time looking at the side view of her hair.


Alright. Maybe you are not paying attention with her hair BUT you are eyeing on that bag. Oh I love Chanel~ It's just wonderful, don't you agree? =))

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*Imagine me with that hairstyle,and a dark red specs on my face*

Oh... It's way too hard for me to imagine that >.<

Help me. Pull me out from here.

Just finished my mock meeting.. and luckily I've got full marks for that despite the nervousness of me being nearly unable to speak out any words. Now I'm really tired. And shit another test is coming soon in less than 2 hours time. Frankly speaking I have not well prepared yet by doing revision, but heck I'm still sitting here and start blogging! Well, guess that is my way of releasing my tension.

I wished I could just throw the tutorial notes away. Into the dustbin.
I HATE numbers!!

Perharps I should just grab for a movie RIGHT NOW and just enjoy for the popcorn and have some laughing?

Or I should drive around aimlessly.

Or I should smoke?! [ok. not a good idea though :p]

Oh or I should drink a coffee.

Maybe a hot latte with cinnamon. With a caramel waffle on it.


Or an ice blended mocha.

Just anything. Because...

ANYTHING WILL DO FINE THAN SITTING HERE STUDYING THE STUPID STATISTICS!!

Okay. Ignore the random topics. I'm just feeling damn bored now.

Far away

*Click on the picture to view a clearer image. Picture taken by Sal.

The star and moon are so far away, so far away from each other.
Maybe they were once fell in love with each other, maybe they were once holding each other's hand.
But God just split them up, and their path has been formulated until they will never see each other again.
Then, Faith came across them, and helped them.
Now they manage to see each other again.
But moon never get to touch star's face, and star never get to hold moon's hand.
NEVER.
They are just so far away.

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This picture is the reason I post this song up.
A touching song.
Though it has been in the market for quite some time.
Enjoy.

p/s: the video is awesome but it gotta take some time for loading though.




Nickelback - Far Away lyrics
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
That I love you I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed I need to hear you say
That I love you I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go

Out of control

Sometimes in between the path of our life,
we will tend to do something that is out of our principle of life.
Maybe it's something wrong that you shouldn't do.
Maybe it's out of our philosophy.
But somehow when the time comes,
you will just do it, cos you are all screwed up,
your life is in a mess, and perharps you are desperate.

No, you are not lost.
You just need to do something that will inspired you to stand up again.
You will stand up again if you'd once fallen so painfully.
You will wake up and be able to see the world again after having a scary nightmare.
And the world maybe, maybe will be all wondrous as you wished.

Up and down, down and up.
Life's upside down, upside down.
It's making you dizzy, so giddy.
Spinning and spinning.
Like sitting on the ferris wheel,
whirling and twirling.

Oh.. finally you will see the lighthouse, which will be guiding you all the way.
All the way till the end of our life.
Life is short afterall.

Note: Photo taken by Bill.

Beauty is in the eye of beholder

Benjamin Franklin, in Poor Richard's Almanack, 1741, wrote:

Beauty, like supreme dominion
Is but supported by opinion

Beauty is a very subjective terms. What is "beauty" in your point of view? Speaking of that, some people tend to compliment the girls/ guys around them, without considering if the thought is really origins from their mind, or just want make them to feel more delighful. And for me, I am not the kind of girl who will feel pleased when someone praised you. I will doubt that if it's happened and there will be quetions and questions floating around my mind, asking myself if that's possibly to be happened. Well, maybe you will have no idea at all cos I will act like the usual bubbly me. And deep inside, I laugh, as louder I could, thinking the person might being sarcastic or whatever. You may say I have a lack in self-confidence. Yes, i admit it. Perharps I have lost it little by little in my daily life. Just like a catastrophe which I couldn't escape from. One day, I will burst off and let myself go. So before that happens, I really need to boost my confidence and start to believe in myself, believe in everything that I want to believe in. And who cares?!

"Oh.. you are really pretty!" "You are prettier than her. No joke." "She's not pretty at all. You are much prettier." This sort of sentences may be running on and off in our daily life. By what means that we must judge a book by its cover? Damnit. And afterall, all of us have a different measurement of ourself on judging whether the person is good looking or not.

Compliment should be used in a right time; but not being over used.

Have you told someone that he/ she is pretty today?

Tell it to the one that you trully care, say it to the one who you think that he/ she is truly beautiful, and speaks your heart out.

"It's beautiful." I mumbled. I'm trying to say the world is so beautiful. At least for now.

Note: Photo taken by Bill.

It's Chocolate time

Now, let me get you tempted with this.


Chocolate.

Hershey's Kisses. Ohh and Toblerone.

Rich dark sweet chocolate. Swiss milk chocolate with honey and Almond Nougat.

Hmm.. nice. Just NICE.

But you wouldn't want to know how I've got it. You wouldn't want to.

It's beyond your imagination.

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Oh, in case you're feeling damn bored now, let me show you some picture which you can laugh yourself out with. Well, at least try not to laugh out too loud :p

If I didn't tell you, I was playing with my friend's cool aviator shades which doesn't look THAT cool on me, in the bus. Guess I just don't meant for aviator shades :(

By the way, do buy polarized sunglasses - the easiest way to get rid of glare. And you can see rainbow-like colour from the reflection of each and every car passing by. Cool.

The world is so colourful.

What is it called? [Edited]

12th of March. It's the 1st day of Cross Cultural Integration Programme in my uni. We've been worked out for couple of months, and now finally it's officially launched. Though we have almost done with our task, but we are still helping out other divisions. We need to work as a team, to make this event succeed.

There are some cultural exhibition going on, from Malaysia and some other countries, like Saudi Arabia, Yemen, Iran and Japan. Teresa, Billy and I have been to every booth, and learned about their culture and their way of living. It was interesting and really fun as we've tried out the Arabia's coffee and red dates. The coffee's taste was lil weird for me, it's bitter, and, I don't know, I more prefer Starbucks' coffee. Anyway, it's an brand new experience for me. Yemen's fellow friends are so friendly. Mathjib, Mohammad, Ahmad... it's so nice to meet you guys :)

We had a photo-taking in the Yemen's booth, as one of us was wearing the tradional's clothing, with a "parang" on his waist. And some dancing as well. It was really amusing.

And before went back to hostel, I had a some kind of "tattoo" [which I don't know what is it called] on my hand, which will last about one week. I was just randomly picked one graphic. And it's look like this.

I know it doesn't look really nice. But I think I should really get a REAL tattoo in future!

And last but not least, support CCIP 2007!

Oh, and I should talk about the car-clamping thingy in my next post.

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[Edit]

Just found out this is my 100th post actually. Seems I've spent quite much a bit on blogging. Hopefully I will still keeping this blog on, and still having mood to rant about my life.

Hmm... Looks like rain

Ladies and gentleman, I present you a Winnie the Pooh mouse pad, obviously, with a small tiny mouse on it.

I bought it at library foyer in my uni, without a second thought. Without considering the price and all that, I handed in the cash in less than one minute.

I never admit myself that I love Winnie the Pooh.

I never say it.

Sun-day

Gosh.. Apparently it's not a good idea for staying up till early in the morning few nites in a row - dull face fulled with blemishes. I know. Cos I'm experiencing it, and enjoying the every moment of dull-looking-face. Duh.

*shaking head*

I know I should REALLY sleep early.
And I should REALLY exercise more.

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Oh.. If u have noticed, I've done something to my blog. The header image, background and font colour, all had been changed. As u can see, I've done a really lousy photoshop cos this is my very first time playing with Photoshop CS 2. Pai seh. The photo actually was taken by ym at Redang Island. And I've made the image abit blurry which is not really nice-looking cos it was done by me this freshie for photoshop CS 2. So plsss tolerate with my lousy photoshop skills lah :p

What is life?

What is life? To me, it's unpredictable, and often it will turn u down. Like I said, good thing doesn't seem belong to me. Why why why? Why I have to face all this sh!t?

It's SO awful. I'm TOTALLY screwed up.
Totally.

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Went Starbucks just now and had a nice hot latte + cinnamon powder just now. Feel better now.
Thanks to someone.
:))

*ly

I'm mentally and physically ----- EXHAUSTED!!

It's been a long time since my last update (not long tho but it's holiday now so suppose I hav alot of time to blogging)... Well, I was soooo busy on this couple of days. Been calling up the companies to request for sponsorship. My butt was like stuck on the chair all day long. Even there's not much time for me to drink (yea I've forgotten to drink water). But anyway, it's Friday nite~ At least I can rest on tomorrow :p

p/s: Im not complaining or sulking here but just literally describing how busy I was :D Cos somebody kept asking me when I will update my blog :p

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I hope I can...

1. meet Paolo Nutini.
2. hold his hand.
3. look into his eyes and he looks at mine too :D
4. hug him tight
5. hang around at anywhere that I like. Walk aimlessly.
   
6. spend my time at starbucks for the whole day having latte + cinnamon powder. Or at coffeebean for the ultimate. *yum yum*
   
7. be more bubbly.
8. meet my prince charming.
9. fly?!

I hate...

1. bored.
2. to be alone.
3. liar.
4. miser.
5. flirter. (too fake)
6. ppl shouts at me.
7. blemishes.
8. of being hungry.
9. braggart.

Well, a pointless entry. Can't thk of anything to write. My head wanna burst liao.

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