Too much to ask

It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely,
Wish someone cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me you’re so lame

I thought you were cool until the point,
Up until the point you didn't call me when you said you would
Finally figured out you're all the same,
Always coming up with some kind of story

Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I’m askin for?

Thought you'd come around when I ignored you,
Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe I guess you didn't take that warning,
’Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
’Cause I, I am still here

But every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You stand like a stone,
Alone in your zone
Is that too much that I’m askin for?

Yeah-eya yeah-eya

Can't find where I am, lying here alone in fear,
Afraid of the dark, no one to claim alone again

YEAH-EYA EYA EYA

Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror,
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
’Cause I, I am still here

Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
It was too much that I asked him for

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I thought I will feel like heaven every time I eat the Beard Papa's cream puff.
Well, seems not.

I thought I will be loved at least as much as I assumed of.
Again, seems not.

Hi I'm the new HR trainee

Been wanting to write something here since I started working but the hectic light work load has always been keeping me away from blogging. I always have very little urge to type; it's always been the movie watching or checking out daily must-visit sites everyday. Well, may be because I have become older with much lesser energy on, I go to bed very early. Not that my daily tasks are tiring; my daily tasks are pretty easy - photocopying, filing, writing documents like meeting minutes. Nothing particular but thank god I have just been given a small assignment on insurance claim (at least I have something to work on others than my daily tasks).

Due to the crazy price-hiking of petrol, I have started car-pooling with my two colleagues. It has been fun as two of them keep arguing over small things or occupying time with jokes and laughters. The manager and senior executive are very friendly, especially during lunch time or non-office hours.

No matter how friendly the people are, how nice the working environment is, all in all I still think that studying is much more fun than working. I missed school times, old-town yamcha sessions, the lepak-ing at the bridge, every trip we had, so many good 'ol memories.

I spent my first non-working Saturday with my colleagues (they are trainees too and mostly younger than me. Geez I feel so old now). We had a fun singing session and watching Indiana Jones. After the outing, I went to Jalan Alor for dinner with my family, before attending a ceremony in a hotel nearby. The dinner was okay (it could have been better if we went to wong ah wah restaurant, as their roasted chicken wings are the best). Holding hands, my sister and I enjoyed the scene of small cozy restaurants as well as beautiful guest house nearby when walking down the street.




I wore this comfy one-piece which looks like pj lol.


sis and I =)

So looking forward to weekend! I'm counting down the days!

Let's get it started

Tomorrow is the first day of internship. Let's hope things will go well; at least don't be that bad. Wish me luck. :)

Thanks to Mandy... The poem is really sweet..

"do not envy
the couples happiness
they will share sorrows too
you though alone
are still loved from afar"

love from mandy

It made my day!

No salvation

It's awful for being alone when you see supposedly lovely couples hanging around you. I said supposedly because in the end of the day, those lovey dovey couples will be all happy but not you. Being in a relationship is wonderful when you meet a right person; but it's not that wonderful and sweet anymore when both of you couldn't spend a single time together side by side. Chatting via Skype may help, but not as much as you seeing him/ her in person. Sometimes I just don't know what to do until I can't held up anymore. At least I have my pillow; it is a great place to cry on.

Puffs and tarts

The picture has nothing to do with the title...

















This is what I've got after walking in cheapie heels for 6 hours (of running errands and visiting book fest)... It was so torturing I couldn't walk anymore. Yes, I hate the shoes for hurting me but I didn't throw it away because I still like it. So I have been staying home and cleaning up my wardrobe. At last it's all neat now :)

Will my legs still be functioning after 3 months of working? Hmm.. let's see... Oh ya, I need to wake up 10 minutes earlier every morning to wear my color contacts on. Hmm...

I think it's possible for me to drive all the way to PJ to buy a Beard Papa's vanila cream puff tomorrow.. still craving over it... Now, J-Co Donuts just added to my list. Well, I should stop eating these fattening pastry/donuts already because I just had two yummy handmade fruit tart this evening :/

The Red Thread

The clock is almost hitting 12. It marks the forth day of my holiday which means Friday is my last day enjoying it. Starting next week, I will be doing my internship (well, boring 8-5 working hours) while mostly everyone still enjoying their "sweet escape". Monday was my best stay-at-home day ever; I'd been watching Sex and the City season 6 (alas sorry for the slowness) since after taking my lunch. It was really fun watching how some typical Manhattan girls messing up with random guys. lol. I hate running errands especially in this hitting-40-degrees kinda weather. Yesterday after finished running errands, I drove to KLCC to meet up with SC and thought of sipping some iced cold latte. I didn't drink latte but ended up eating some nice sliced beef rice. We went to the book fest which held in KL Convention Centre as SC wanted to attend a talk by a famous writer from Taiwan - Jiu Ba Dao (also named as Giddens).



The talk was funny and interesting; Giddens was so humor everyone could not stop laughing at his jokes. I could have left after listening to his talk but I didn't. Instead, I queued up for getting his signature signed on the book which I asked SC to grab for me (got to buy The Red Thread because all others I wanted to buy were out of stock) while I was busy queuing up. (crazy me rite? so strange getting attached to his work without having really known him in the first place.) Anyways, we finally got his signature after queuing for 1 hours. (crazy crowd!) He's cute..with the humor and all..





Today no more errands to run but had an appointment.


what I wore today; a fluffy lacey top paired with a fierce-printing top.

Having non-stop craving over Beard Papa's Cream Puff, of course I couldn't resist the temptation when I passing by the shop (ehem.. should be purposely passing by...) On a random note, I think I can write a "How to successfully consume a cream puff while driving safely" guide. lol.

currently listening: Switchfoot - You

Happy holiday, everyone!

Yay. Here I am posting something again. I have finally done with my exam! I should be happy now right? Well oh well, after all the memorizing (don't ask me why because shit, I took 7 subjects this sem) and the complaining (which I shouldn't be)....

Memorizing is the best part of all, when your head is packed with tissues and membranes which have reached its saturation limit... (ah, pardon the lame scientific description.. four years of science-studying seems not helping me at all...)

Btw, thanks for the comments; they made my day! (actually got a bit shock when reading through them...and only found out there's actually people reading my blog.. and responding to it...)

Anyways, I have so many things I wanted to write about; but somehow the situation doesn't allow me to. (and I'm sure you won't bother too..)

After feeling much urge to get myself busy with something, I watched A Walk to Remember.



Quite an old film; but I love the storyline because the love between them was so simple and true yet so beautiful. It proved something: There's more to attraction than meets the eye.

It . was . truly . amazing .

*throwing a stash of used tissues into dustbin..*

Aww... Shane West!! He has the most gorgeous eyes!

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